Why I Shaved My Head And Why I Love It

First time on Zoom showing my friends

After years of hiding my thinning hair with extensions, fillers, and wigs, I finally did something I never thought I would actually do. I shaved my head.

Since 2016 wigs had been part of my daily routine. They were my safety net but also a constant source of stress. Every few months I was dyeing them back to brown, spending more money on new ones, and putting up with the endless upkeep. What started as a way to cover up my hair loss slowly became exhausting and expensive. One day I realized I was done. Done with the money, the upkeep, and most of all the hiding. So I picked up the clippers and let it all go.

And I absolutely love it.

Day 1 of Buzz

Living with a buzzcut has been one of the most freeing choices I have ever made. There is no more stress about bald spots or wondering how realistic my hair looks. There is no more worrying about whether people can tell. It is just me. Simple and real. Now the only beauty step I add is filling in my eyebrows a little since they are thinning too. A few quick strokes of makeup and I am ready to go.

The best part is that I feel like myself again. Not a version of me that is hiding behind hair but the real me. Confident, authentic, and lighter in every sense of the word.

Solo Camping down South near Moab, Utah- camping is so easy without hair!

I will admit though, there is another side to this. I am single, and sometimes I wonder if I will ever meet someone who can still see me as feminine and attractive. Society has a way of linking long hair with beauty, and without it I know I can come across as more masculine. It is something I think about, but at the same time I know the right person will look past hair and see me for who I really am. I know I will be comfortable and at peace with myself.

Here in Utah I am actually excited for winter. Instead of fussing over wigs I will be picking out cozy beanies and warm earmuffs.

For now and maybe forever I will keep rocking my buzzcut. It is not just a haircut. It is freedom.

A Few Takeaways

• Beauty is not in the length of your hair, it is in the confidence you carry.

• Freedom often begins the moment you stop hiding.

• The right people will never confuse femininity with hair length.

• Sometimes the bravest thing you can do is show up as your most natural self.